Procratination..my evil nemisis strikes again!

I have attempted to put everything on my computer, but have only managed half a page so far, and that half a page has 5 different changes from what I wrote originally! Although I do like it better I cant help but wonder if nothing will stay the same. As Ive written more in my notebook different plot points change and even characters names. If someone read my "book" right now they would definately see that it is completely different from start to finish.

I can see now that Im going to have to edit about 20 times to make sure everything is right.

All in all Ive been doing alright. Ill write a page or two a day, which isnt really signifacant but is much much more than I ever have before so Im really proud of myself! Im still into the story and I havnt gotten to the good part yet. (Seeing as Im writting it I know exactly where it will be!) I know alot that I already want to change with the begining and want so bad to back track and change it now, but if I do that I will keep doing it and the story will never go forward. So I am going to say on this path and just keep writing.

Right now Im not getting into much detail, im just writing through what I know is going to happen and writing the major plot points, my first edit will be to put all the datail and the bulk of the book in. Then only 19 more edit sessions after that!! Pray for me!

Putting everything off!

So I havnt wrote in awhile I know! Our Computer broke so Ive been out when it comes to internet lately. Luckily for me my husbands step father rebuilds computers and made me an early Christmas present!! Yay Steve! lol I am so grateful! I havnt been online in so long I've forgotten all the wonderful distractions there are on here!!

As for my NaNoWriMo, well it too was put off, the computer was one reason, but my daughter and procrastination were big reasons as well. I have wrote more on my book, and have gotten at least 100 times further than any other book Ive started. I am in love with my story, Im not even sure how it will end, which makes me want to write even more, so I can find out!! haha I think Im going to try and transfer it to the computer and finish it from there, but Im not sure I want to yet. I think I get more inspiration when Im handwriting it. Theres something about seeing it there on paper and being able to flip back and forth that makes it more real. But, ofcourse I will have to put it on the computer eventually so transfering the little I hev now seems so much less daunting than trying to type in 500 pages.

I'll think on that and get back to you. Until then, Im going to look up some Harry Potter, and Twilight stuff! B uh Bye! :)

Obstacles

Yesterday was the start of National Novel Writing Month and I did great! I had to put it off until 11-o-clock at night but I typed for an hour and managed to get  863 words out! I got super tired after that so I had to go to bed.

Then today while my daughter was taking a nap I sat down to write some more. I had writen my story on Google Docs, so I could have it anywhere I go. I went to open the document today and for some reason my computer doesnt want to load half of the google page, including the link to open my document. I tried refreshing and back steping and clicking away madly but to my dismay..nothing worked. So now I am back to square one! I cant remember what I typed, only the general tone of it. It was probably for the best though because it seems to me that I am a much better writer when I hand write. I type much faster of course, when handwriting it takes me an hour and a half at least to get what I typed in an hour. The benefit of hand writing though, is being able to see it tangiblely (please refer to my blog about spell check) in front of you, and look back and write in, or out. I think Im going to take my computers lack of cumputering skills as a blessing and start in my notebook. My beautifully lined, solid, notebook.

So tonight, after heroes and Dancing with the Stars, I will start all over handwriting my soon to be Best Selling Book :) Thinking Positive works really well for me.

Things Unforseen

Busy Busy week! Friday night my daughter burnt her hand on our heater. We went to the emergency room thinking that they were going to put something on it and let us go, turns out it was a third degree burn and they had to put her under to cut the blister off. We were at the hospital for a week. She did so great, and all the nurses loved her! They dont think theirs going to be any scaring or anything! I cried so much this week, but now that I know she is going to be okay (and now that we have a gate baring the way to the heater) I feel much better.

Also, I have some big news! We just found out I am pregant with my second kid! We are very excited. Who knows how this is going to effect my writing, I might want to kill of a character one second and then be trying to figure out a way to bring him back the next!

Today is November 1st! The official starting day of the 50,000 word challange with NaNoWriMo! I have yet to start writing, but mark my words, I will be writing into the night. It will be much easier once the kiddo is asleep.  I have been having dreams about my book and now I get to start it!! Everything is comeing together nicely! Wish me luck and please keep me in your prayers!

You know you're a writer if...

• You finish your or others comments with dialogue discriptions ie: She said, or she sighed (how ever you spell that) exsasperatedly.  <~~ I do that all the time!
• You listen to a song and think 'That would be a great aspect to add to my book!'
• You have dreams about what ever your writing at the time.
• You get irritated at your characters and think of something to write in that would make you feel better, so they can get what they deserve!
• You get surprised when something shocking happens..as though your reading it for the first time.
• You even get shocked when you thought about what was going to happen way before you wrote it!
• You feel as though letting someone else read your writting is an invasion of privacy.
• Yet you still want to publish it for thousands to read.

All of these describe me; no joke! Add on anymore that you can think of.

Office

My desk is full of it, clutter that is, it's a pretty grusome sight. I've been asked a couple times how I can even work in such an environment. It's my creative chaos, I reply. From an "outsiders" eyes it looks like a horrific mess of papers and trash and candy wrappers, but I know exactly where everything is. How do I know where it it is you may ask, well I put it there!

My whole house is clean (well it is sometimes) So this is my little area of  crazyness, it has to get out somewhere.

I recently found a cute "office toys" kit. It has tons of little square papers and a peice of paper with a football stadium and goal posts, so I can fold the little papers into little footballs and "kick" them into the goal. Unfortunately my 8 year old sister and my step-daughter got a hold of them and made them all into little bitty "envelopes" and "letters." So now I can just stare at my goal posts, with no footballs to toss at it. I suppose I could make some out of regular paper, but the little papers had cute footballs and helmets on them.

Enough of my ranting about football, I have no idea where the sudden interest in sports came from. Even if it is only "office sports."

Nine days until the start of NaNoWriMo, and I can finally start writing! I need to work more on my outline before then. Still some little points that need to be figured out, especially that darn name! Maybe if I put a poll on here y'all can vote for a name. Of course then I would have to think of four different names, so that doesnt really help.

I hear my daughter waking up so until next time!

Inspiration

This past saturday I had my first meet up with fellow NaNoers in my area. It was great to sit around drinking coffee amd talking about our different goals, and the different ways we might nedd help through out the month. It was such a wonderful experience, I cant wait until the kick off meeting.

I found a pen the other day, by the way, but it can not compete with my old one. The silver grey pen had become a companion of sorts. My loss was tragic, but I might get over it. With time..and a new pen just like it.

Only ten more days until NaNoWriMo and Im still fine tuning the plot line.

Only ten more days, and I still dont have a name for my main male character. I hope it will hit me just as I am about to write it down.

My brain is scattered tonight with people talking all around me so I can not stick to one subject. I hope that problem doest occure come NaNo time.

Until the next time (when, hopefully, I will be significantly less scatter brained) God Bless!

A writers most important tool

The Pen!

My pen that I love so much, it writes so smoothly and dark, just ran out of ink! Now dont ask me what brand it is or anything because I am oblivious to that (although I suppose I could just look at the pen to find out) I just know that I got it in a two pack for 7 bucks at CVS pharmacy, and the other one in the pack was chewed to death by my darn dog. I finished my notes with a different pen but it felt so foreign and weird in my hand. I miss my pen.

Today I was asked a couple times what my book was about. A simple enough question, but I felt a frog in my throat as I began trying to explain my plot to these people. It was odd that I felt so self-consious when talking about my book. I felt like I was bearing my soul to strangers. This overwhelming forboding hit me. I would have much rather read my entire journal aloud to a stadium than answer these inocent questions. Why is that I wonder? It's a fiction book, with no basis on any of my reality, and no connecting plot lines or characters to me. I just felt as though my whole life, every thought I have ever thought and every feeling I have ever felt were being displayed right then and there. I wonder how people who have their books published feel. To have that feeling a million times over, with thousands of people. That is going to be a challenge I will have to face full on, it will be hard, but I know I can do it.

Climate Change

You know..the climate changes..to something different.

I'm just kidding people, but really It starts to get me thinking sometimes. If each year the average raises a half a degree then it could start to get pretty darn hot! I know that I try and do my part, use less energy and all that jazz, but sometimes its so hard to keep that as a priority. I could definately do more, turn off lights, unplug electronics when Im not using them, recycle.

It's kind of like if every one donated 1 penny to a charity that would be alot of dough. So if we use that concept and everyone cut back one day, then that would be a heck of alot of energy saved!

Some people just shut down when anything about the environment or global warming comes up in conversation, but I urge people to listen, and act! It just takes one penny to make a difference.

Brainstorm

Last night was fraught with the chatter of thousands of thoughts that chose to show themselves to me as I lay, trying to sleep, in my bed. Needless to say there was many reaches for the cell phone (for light) and my notebook and pen. Each time I closed my eyes all I could think about was another plot line, or story idea, or character and so on.

What really kept my mind moving though, was the fact that I can not for the life of me figure out what to name the main male character! I keep thinking that his name starts with an M, but the thought process stops there.

Oh the whoas of a stumped, so called, writer!

But last night did get me further along in the love story of my book. Yes there is a love story, can you really write a fantasy book without one? I wrote some conflicts that would happen, also a big plot point. So last night, even though the sleep was lacking, was a great night!

Darn that name!! I wish I could figure it out.

Only two days until I meet with fellow NaNoers to discuss outlines, plots, ect.and only 16 more days until the star of the 50,000 word challenge!!




I can not wait to start writing this book! For those of you who don't know, the reason Im waiting to start writing is, you are not suppossed to go into Nov. 1st with an already started Novel. So right now Im working on my characters, plot lines, etc.

Also, NaNoWriMo is run by th Office of Letters and Lights a 501(c)(3) nonprofit charity who runs NaNoWriMo's youth and adult novel-writing programs. So go donate! Help pay the teachers salarys and for the childrens writing programs.

No Spell Check

Please do not be perturbed by my lack of spelling skills in the previous post. Although I claim to be a writer, I have never claimed to be a speller. That is one of my weaknesses that makes people wonder when I say I'm going to write a book. Thats what spell check is for people! I dont need to be an excelent speller in order to be and excelent writer....do I?

Unfortunately when I write this blog, it has no automatic spell check. So one day when your reading this blog and you have no idea what it is I'm trying to say, just ask me and I will google it, and if you want, you can even tell me the correct way to spell it. (By the way, I totally googled perturbed to see if I spelt it right..and I did!)

Don't get me wrong, I know how to spell research (I didn't even have to google that one) I blame that, repeated, mis-spell on my tendency to think faster than I can write. I will get one word down, but I'm already thinking about what Im going to write in the next sentence. Its a problem, I know, but that is the beauty of editing.

I'll just try and edit before I post...although that doesnt always work.

I almost spelt although with a "T" at the end.

Also, sometimes I go through this phase where I want to put an "E" at the ende ofe every worde. Anyone know what thats about?

Today, Today

Another day!! I love new days. I didnt wake up as early as I wanted to today but Ill get over it. Last night I sorted through all of my old stories and put them neatly in separate sections of my accordion folder. I had way more started stories than I thought I did. Some were really good, something I might write on later. Some I had no Idea what my begining intentions were. I have pages and pages written up right now with plot ideas, character bios, random sketches, story line ideas and so on.

In my book they're going to go to Paris, then England so I had to reasearch both places so when I write about them I can be somewhat accurate. They are going to a place called Lands End, which is the most South Western Point of England, from there their going to go to the fictitios land that is in my book. Well while reasearching Lands End I found out that there are actual Celtic myths about a land off the coast of Lands End that got swallowed be the water, some believe it was the country mentioned in Tristram and Isolt (or Tristan and Isold) Lyonnesse. I am completely excited to be able to add some Celtic and Arthurian aspects to my book, its also harder because I have so much more research to do now!!

Its been a little hard lately to write outlines and plot ideas and research because I have been so busy. My 10 month old daughter is walking!! It is so strange to see this little bitty girls walking around like its nothing. So half of my day is spent standing her up and holding my arms out because I want to see her walk again, and again, and again, and again!



Today is going to be a great day!

My husband just got a call today to go in and process for a new job! Yay us :)

I am very excited...mainly for my own selfish reasons.

1 I can stay home with Bella (my daughter)

2 I can do NaNoWriMo with out the extra burden of a job

3 (less selfishly) We can catch up on our bills :)

This is a blessing! Thank God for Huge favors. Now I can fully immerse myself in my research for my book that I will be starting on November first. By the way if there is anyone who wants to do the 50k word challenge, just go to www.nanowrimo.org and sign up. There are so many people doing this all around the world, and in your region. They have kick off parties and write ins.

All in all, a great day!

Life happens

I have been so busy these past two days. My little girl has been sick, therefor she hangs all over me all day. It's very hard to get anything done when a 10 moth old is strapped to your waist.

Also, my husband lost his job, and cant get unemployment. We are about to feel it pretty hard. I'm actually going to get a job...which is something I haven't had since I was 5 months pregnant. I am kind of nervous, but excited at the same time. It will be a relief to be able to get out during the day, the down side being, I wont be at my daughters constant beckon call. I'm positive she will be fine, who knows how I will handle it.

With NaNoWriMo coming up, I will have a tougher time writing 50,000 words, but I know I can get it done! Pray for me.

Figure it out!

I started this blog, mainly to have something for myself. It seems as women we so often put others before ourselves on a daily basis. As this blog indicates, I am a Wife, a Mother, and an aspiring Author (although my spelling doesn't always show that. Thank God for spell check!)

I have an accordion folder with many stories, from half a page to 20 pages that I have started and never finished. I try and blame it on my busy schedule, but I know and you know (or you suspect) that it is my lack of self motivation and my continuous procrastination. (I'm a poet and didn't know it...or did I?) This November first marks the start of National Novel Writing Month 2009. I am officially going to throw myself into the 50,000 word challenge. There is a book I have been dreaming and dwelling on for a while now, that I absolutely have to get on paper. NaNoWriMo is truly a blessing at the best possible moment. I am ecstatic about meeting fellow NaNoers as well!

I am 21 years old, with a wonderful husband, a crazy fun and lovable 4 year old step-daughter, and a beautiful 10 month old daughter. Next month, in between, diapers, rides to school, breakfast, lunch and, dinner, night time stories, baths, nap times, grocery shopping, alone time with hubby, sleep, and now this Blog,I will attempt to shell out 50k words of a novel that I hope will be a published best seller shortly afterward. Wish me luck and join me in the process.